Not fine!

I am not fine with you been gone..
Always dream of the time foregone..

You left me in this world of sorrow...
Always kept thinkin in enthusiasm of the morrow..

You made my mind go fizz,it just blows..
Perhaps its the wrong path we chose..

The mirror gave me a faded image..
runnin after the time to chase..

I would never turn back and see you again..
you have always left me in this world of pain..

Where were you when I left blank?
It was more than a hard anger spank..

Is this the day I've been waitin for?
standin still and hearin the roar...

Why you're rangin me now?
What you think I've missin you somehow...

Its not the love-sick thing anymore..
the game is over with that harcore..

I am not fine with you been gone..
always dream of the time foregone..
-Niharika {Naina}

Thrs nothin more

From where shall I start?
Till where do I end?
Your words were true,
what else shall I pursue?

My ignorance to you,
held my breath tight.
I was afraid whether I made it right?

Your question to me..
always left me blank..
but the memories you drew I make you thank..

What can I say?
we went wrong and lost each other,
and there's nothin I can hope further..

It hurts me talkin to you like this..
it always make my mind go fizz..

just lets be practical..
our realtion is just been tactical..

its not an unbreakable bond anymore...
its as bad as a snore..

Its better if I ignore you this way...
this would fade your memories gray..
whatever i did was right...
don't take me wrong...
its for our own future bright...

this would be the end...
I'll always hope you to be mine..
everythin would be just fine...

from where shall I start ?
till where do I end?
I am okay so far..
so that we would shine like a star..
yet I am not sad..
because lord has always set somethin nice for the lovers mad..
-NIHARIKA KOHLI
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AH ! MY BIRTHDAY

It was fab. this time...on my b'days nite i waited for sam's call whole nite hopin that he wud be the the one to wish m first but he didnt as usual..i really hate him frm the core of my heart for that...he shud atleast wish me at 12...tarun was the first to wish...later himanshu,vinay and best pal-tanvi wished at the midnight...
the next day wen i woke up i had an off frm scul....i aaceesed my gmail and i found sam to be online..i had a word wid him and he abused me...i just left blank that time...i thought i wud never talk to him ever again...later everythin was alrite and i had a phone chat wid him for almost an hour or even more than tat...i took a shower,i dreessed up and i went to nirula's...durin my way to nirula's i had a phone chat wid sam and he told me tat he is here...i didnt believed and i went late..wen i reached there jyoti told me taht he was here and all tat stuff..i fucked off myself and was really raelly really depressed...forget it..we had a meal and later we moved on to crown interiors..we guyz end it up at 6:30 p.m. and i watched a movie wid mum-dad and had dinner and reached back home...the day was fine better than my previous b'day..i hope every b'day goes like this..i had the company of my best peers this time-nandani,tanvi,jyoti,alisha and manvi...luv them all...hope to be together as alwayz...

Why do I always suck a romantic and a precious moment..?

Today i again fought wid him....am i that dumb??...i didnt said anythin..why do he always take me wrong???there was nothin to fight abt..its not only me who can save those precious moments even sam should think abt it...its a hard time now for me to control..bette change urself tooo...aise kaam nahi hota hai...its a big deal now...how long a relationship can be carried off like this??we guyz really need to end it...wenever i fought wid u ,i wish to kill u and me both and start a new life being brother and sister in the next birth...watever we had today it was okay...but we both really need to think abt it...i apologise...i am srry for my misbehave...and who so ever is readin this post wont able to get me rite..i just wrote this bcoz i really need to be urs..that my heart to heart connection in this world full of affection....

WHERE I WENT WRONG?

Every time i think of you when i am lonely,
and i now knew that you are my one and only..

Only love in my tiny lil heart,
in my life you are the best part..

A part that have the keys to my soul,
without you i just can't control..

Control myself in this mean world,
You still remember I've always been swirled..

Swirled in the wind in the dark sky,
when you were the one to deny..

Deny me for having your love,
a love that was hidden in a lil dove..

A dove that will bring you and me back,
and will turn it into a perfect track..

A track that will be perfect forever,
and the one which will be broken never ever..

Ever you loved me i kept wondering,
and i was doubtful for that plundering..

Plundering you from my life,
because for you i have done a hard strife..

A strife that would make you mine for ages,
walking with you at every stages..

Stages that broke us apart,
with you i still hope to start..

Start a new life and live together,
in this world in the regions nether..

Nether lip I'll gnawed your,
hope that you'll be loving sure..

Sure to believe that you'll be mine,
that would be the day wen I'll be sparkling wine..

Wine that would be as sweet as lime,
For us to commit to this loved crime..

Crime I've ever done so,
and now i wonder why you said me no..

No to continue the relationship long,
and now i wonder where i went wrong?
-Niharika Kohli (Naina)

When Love Hurts -A hard experience of life

The day i first saw you,something clutched into my mind about you.I thought it was an infatuation and i passed away.Later i saw you on a school trip and could never forget that moment wen you were standing beside me and i kept starring you continuously without blinking my eyes.A hunk in the blue colored tee with a cute smile,an extra tooth and 2 studs in the right ear.I was totally,internally and externally fallen for you.The tour changed my life.At the entire trip i kept looking at you,i kept following you but i forgot that i have a life to live of my own.When we were coming back from the tour i slept next to your seat in the train and whole night my eyes were on you.It was a kind of a craziness and madness you can say but whatever it was it was wonderful.Later we arrived back and you were lost from my eyes but i still remembered you in my heart.Everything was smooth for a couple of months but after sometime an extreme bad moment took place in my life when my pal told you about me and you betrayed me.A dream was broken and a life ended.I tried my level best to forget you and moved on with my life.
As some months passed i could actually believe that i am forgetting u but on the other hand i always kept wondering about you.I myself can't understand what actually happened to me because i could not believe that it was love because i was a kid at that time and i am still a kid.As time passed you told me to tie a rakhi to you and i did.Though i was quite hurt about it because i don't know you.i never had a word with you and everything was done.so why should i tie one one to you.I hate him for that.
After doing so every lil hope was lost,everything was over.I again faced a mess and moved on.
Even after that he was not completely flushed out of my life.He again took an entry by asking for a relationship to be done.As i loved him i didn't refused him.I said yes and spend a month with him and he left me,he destroyed me,he broke my trust.In other words "HE USED ME".I again tried to forget him but i couldn't.I loved him more than i love anything else in this world.That was the first time i saw myself crying for a guy though nothing was much serious between us.
After a couple of months he proposed me on orkut and i approved.We had a long long time together with each other and started falling more in luv.i started living for him.i committed my life to him.then i passed through another shock when he told me that he wasn't serious for me and it was just a time pass but meanwhile he also told me that he is now serious and wish to continue with me.i was damn serious for him so i spend the other moments also with him.we started knowing each other better and even started hanging out with each other.i met him several times and the moments i spend with him were the best moments of my life.i still luv him.around the month of October-November he started ignoring me and i felt that he is going away from me.i tried my level best to keep him happy that time.i never refused him for anything but even i came to know from my pal that he is using me but i didn't believed it coz i was blind in his love.i called him home.shared a few moments with him and the way he behaved with me that time i was quite sure that he is no more interested in me but i never loosed my hope.i still had faith in him and gave our relationship another chance.but soon he left me and i now live every moment like a dead person in this alive world.i cried a lot a lot a lot for him.i can even bet the world now that even if 100000 people gets one and united and started loving him but still their love will fail in front of me bcoz i luv him more than anybody else love him in this world.i have committed my life to him...i have committed my soul to him and how could anybody live without a soul.though he was unfaithful to me but still i am ok.i want to see him glad.i need him to get the happiness of this whole world.time heals my pain a bit but not the whole.i still have him in my tiny heart and nobody else.I'll kiss death in his arms if i wont get him and i have no shame to commit this in front of the whole world that i luv him more than i luv anythin else in this world ,even more than i luv myself.i still have that faith in you because when your heart reached mine the first word you told me was that "TRUST ME".Think of it bcoz this seldom lonely star is livin for you in this mean world.

LAST NIGHT I DREAMT OF YOU

Last night i dreamt of you..

Starring lovingly into each others eyes..
For me it was an extreme hard surprise...

I never thought we would hit it off again...
All just vanished with that hard pain..

I held your hand and walked with you...
There was no more fear as these moments were a few...

Though we knew that dad was behind..
still we clutched it and we were refined...

I loved your smile which i saw after a long time...
the time we had was as sweet as a sweet lime..

You dropped me till the place i live...
but my hugs and kisses you misgive...

You made me relived and told me to carry to it to the next day..
i took u apart and hold u hard and end it with a good bye kiss....

You went away and later i wake...
knowing that it was a dream that will fade..

Thanks to you coz i had a smile after i dreamt of you...
but in your absence i am like a leaf without a dew...

Last night i dreamt of you...
today morning i hope u to be real...

-NIHARIKA KOHLI (NAINA)

FREE WITH WORK

Past few weeks were the most tiering days for me....giving exams after every couple of day has been a big deal for me now...i get really depressed in exams...and this time one thing which I've noticed is that i can't stay without my best pal-tanvi....its been around 1 and a half year that i and tanu are together and the moments which i haven't shared with bharti and nandani,I've shared those with tanvi...its sounds a lil weird coz i am talkin abt a gal like that but we have really been very gud companions..exams were a huge suck up this time...its been a very long and tiering schedule for me and i felt extremely restless....all of them went really bad and i am out of those 85 and 90's this time..i have realized that the one who work hard to score marks always lose in life and thats the ultimate truth of life...so i have stop studying now...waise bhi it makes me go mad...nowadays what i actually love is that -"i love you" song by jazzy b ..i just simply love that song...even during my exams i kept listenin to that and kept singin and dancin on it all the time and that would be one the major reason that i've not scored well in exams...i want to be a person like sam...he is different and stylish in his own way and nobody can call him mad as the way he present himself in front of others is really gud but thats a different thing that our taste doesn't match...but still i am okay with it because from past few months I've started liking what he likes and i really thank for turnin me into a human being from some kind of a weired animal...next year i have my 10th boards and i am plannin to study only in 10th and i am glad that i haven't changed my school this year as if have joined an hostel and then it would be difficult for me to adjust in 10th because i am somebody who is always off from school and i don't even realize it...i remember a couple off days back when i took leave for 2 days from school then amit sir told me that -where have u been for these 2 days and i always find u taking leaves and i was extremely depressed by that but i take less of leaves this year as compared to my previous class when i was in 8th and i started arguing with him about this that how could you say that to me and a scene was create...he showed me my last months record and i came to know that I've attended the school for only 17 days out of 31 days...as i have an attitude problem i gave a cold look to sir and he too passed me the same...whatever the matter was i just didn't liked it....and now i am free for 3 days...i am plannin to go to karnal tomorrow to spend some time with my sis as i feel lonely without sam and gautam here...and my birthday is also approaching and dad is leavin for Dubai soon and most probably he wont be here on my birthday so i am extremely into my looks nowadays...last year on my birthday my overall look was of a tom gal coz i was dressed in a cargo with a simple tee with the shoes...i actually preferred the best brand last year coz i thought that goin on with the best brand would ultimately make me look good and would turn me into a better piece..but this time i am seekin for a designer dress..so would be wearing something which would give me a sweet girlish look rather than that tom look..well,lets hope for the best this time...

MY COMMITTMENT

FROM WHERE DO I BEGIN??
TILL WHERE DO I END??
MY LOVE IS TRUE,
I MADE IT PROOFED..

AH!THE DAY WE MET I CAN'T FORGET THAT TOUCH,
THE TIME WE HIT IT OFF WITH THAT HARD CLUTCH...

YOUR ESSENCE I FELT,
THOSE MEMORIES CAN'T MELT...

THE TIME WAS DELICIOUS,
THE MOMENT WAS AUSPICIOUS..

THE NOSE FIGHT WE PLAYED,
I CAN NEVER LET IT FADE..

YOUR HUG MADE IT HARD,
THUS ITS BEEN DELICIOUS SO FAR...

YOUR JUMP FROM MY FIRST FLOOR,
MADE ME MORE ADORE....

THE NINE HOURS JUST FEEL LIKE ONE,
LIKE YOU THERE IS NONE...

THIS SELDOM LONELY STAR WISH TO ENJOY WITH YOU,
YOUR HEART WILL BE MY HOME IS A WISH I MADE A FEW...

THIS SELDOM LONELY STAR WISH TO SHINE IN YOUR ARMS,
THATS THE WAY YOU ARE-A MAN FULL OF CHARMS...

FROM WHERE DO I BEGIN??
TILL WHERE DO I END??
MY LOVE IS TRUE,
I MADE IT PROOFED..

-NIHARIKA KOHLI (NAINA)

Lonely Me

PEOPLE WANT TO LIVE,
BUT I WANT TO DIE..

MY CONDITION IS BECAUSE OF YOU...
AND THE REASON YOU MAY KNEW...

PEOPLE WANT TO PLAN THEIR FUTURE,
BUT I NEED TO PLAN MY DEATH..

THE PROMISES WE MADE YOU BREACHED IT WELL...
AND THATS THE REASON WHY I YELL...

PEOPLE LOVE SWEETS,
BUT I NEED POISSON...

MY LIFE IS LIKE HELL,
AND HERE I STOP BECAUSE FURTHER I CANNOT TELL...

PEOPLE WANT TO LIVE,
BUT I WANT TO DIE...

-NIHARIKA KOHLI (NAINA)

IF I WONT GET YOU, THEN I'LL KISS DEATH IN YOUR ARMS SOMEDAY...

HEART TO HEART

WITH THAT HEART TO HEART CONNECTION...
I SAW THE WORLD FULL OF AFFECTION....

THE DREAMS I HAVE DAILY SEEN...
I HOPE THEY HAVE REALLY BEEN..

YOU'LL BE MINE I AM SURE....
WITH MY BROKEN HEART THAT IS CURED...

A BOND THAT IS UNSEEN...
WILL SPLASH OUT IN A PERFECT SCENE..

MY WORDS ARE NOT FAKE...
ITS MY HEART WHICH WONT BREAK...

WITH THAT HEART TO HEART CONNECTION...
I SAW THE WORLD FULL OF AFFECTION...

-NIHARIKA KOHLI (NAINA)

GOT YA !

MISS YOU,LOVE YOU,WANT YOU...
I REMEMBER THE DAY I FOUND YOU...

STANDING ALONE IN THE DREAMS OF YOUR OWN...
A PERSONALITY WHICH WAS UNKNOWN...

YOUR PRIDE,YOUR EYES,YOUR SMILE CAUGHT IT ALL...
THE WAY I STOOD IT MADE ME FALL...

WHAT COULD I DO...
MY LOVE WAS TRUE...

MY SIGHT AT YOU...
MADE IT ALL BLUE...

I WISHED I HAVE YOU IN MY LIFE...
FOR THAT I DID A MISERABLE STRIFE...

I PRAYED LORD EVERY DAY AND NIGHT...
FOR THE MAN WHO I WANTED TO BE MINE...

AT LAST I GOT YA....
I THANKS FOR THE DAY I FOUND YA....

-NIHARIKA KOHLI (NAINA)

NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE

NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE...
I STILL LOVE YOU FROM THE CORE OF MY HEART...

ONE DAY WITHOUT YOU IS AS 100 AGES WITHOUT YOU...
BUT STILL I NEVER DOUBT YOU....

AS I LOVED YOU NOW....
IS THE HOPE THAT I'LL BE BELOVED SOMEHOW....

I FEEL THAT YOU ARE MINE...
THAT IS THE REASON WHY I SHINE...

I THANK YOU BCOZ YOU REMEMBERED ME.....
HERE IT IS EMBER ME...

NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE...
I STILL LOVE YOU FROM THE CORE OF MY HEART...

-NIHARIKA KOHLI(NAINA)

RAGHAV

RAGHAV-THE HOTTIE....I AM SO MUCH DESPERATE TO MEET THIS MAN....COZ THIS ONE'S SOMEONE WHO I CAN CALL AS A PERFECT GUY....GOOD LOOKS,MUSCULAR BODY,HAIRLESS CHEST,SEXY PERSONALITY,FULL OF ATTI....IT'S JUST A WONDER....SOMETIMES BACK ON HALLOWEEN,2007 VINNY(MY COUSIN)-A DJ IN NY CITY ORGANIZED A LIVE SHOW OF IT AND I WISHED TAT TIME THAT I TURN 18 SOON AND MEET SUCH SEXY-SEXY,HOTTIE-HOTTIE GUYS....RAGHAV IS SOMEBODY WHOM I LOVE LIKE A WILD CAT....ANYWAYS,I AM REALLY LOOKING FORWARD FOR RAGHAV'S NEW ALBUM-"IDENTITY" WHICH'LL BE LAUNCHING THIS 20TH OF OCTOBER -2 DAYZ AFTER MY B'DAY...DN'T YOU DARE MISS IT...





BIOGRAPHY OF RAGHAV-

After shifting an impressive 1.3 million copies of 2004 debut Storyteller around the globe, “crossover” artist Raghav is back to set the charts alight with his monster new single My Kinda Girl. And to show he means business in 2008, he’s drafted the unmistakable swagger of hip-hop legend Redman to lace the bouncy R&B stunner, where swirls of Bollywood horns mesh nicely with throbbing beats and the singer’s slick pop vocals. The result is nothing less than a flavoursome masterpiece, produced by longtime collaborator Mushtaq who worked on tracks on the last album “Storyteller”.

“My Kinda Girl is a track I started two and a half years ago and it’s just been the most fun I’ve had making a record,” says Raghav. “We spent the whole day in the studio with Red and you can tell why he’s a legend because he came in, asked a couple of questions about the vibe we wanted and just delivered way beyond that. He’s himself, so it makes it easier to work with someone where you know what you’re gonna get. And I think it’s one of the best features he’s ever done.”

My Kinda Girl marks the highly-anticipated return of the 27-year-old, who made his introduction to the British public on four top ten smashes and a top twenty So Confused and It Can’t Be Right, Can’t Get Enough and Let’s Work It Out. Following the release of his debut album with V2 Records, he clinched another top ten in 2005 with the dancehall-themed Angel Eyes, making it clear that his trademark style for fusing his musical influences of hip-hop, RnB, Bollywood, reggae, Indian classic music and soul was an undisputed winner.

The accolades speak for themselves – he’s won a MOBO for Best Collaboration, an Asian Achievers Award, an Urban Music Award, two UK Asian Music gongs and the Southern Asian Music Award for Best Artist. Add to that the achievement of having the 6th biggest international selling album of all time in India and there’s no doubt Raghav has got the resume of a bonafide superstar.

Since then, he’s consistently toured worldwide, performing before audiences of at least 40,000. He’s secured shows this year in Miami, Detroit, Delhi, Bombay, New York, Manchester, London and San Francisco and he’ll also be joining the Unforgettable Tour this autumn, featuring Bollywood’s biggest artists including Amitabh & Abhishek Bachchan, Aishwarya Rai- Bachchan, Preity Zinta and Akshay Kumar.

Now Raghav’s putting the finishing touches to his second album entitled Identity, which he’s co-writing with the likes of Cutfather and Joe (Pussycat Dolls), Niara Scarlett (Sugababes, Girls Aloud and Mutya Buena), Peter Wade (JLo) Jazzwad (Damien Marley) Mushtaq and prominent Hindi producers Flavasia. Released on September 15th, it’s a fresh mix of eclectic melodies and cultural soundscapes, with a sizzling lead single that’ll undoubtedly pave the way for Raghav’s rightful return to the top.

FICTION WRIITEN BY ME (LONELY ME)

I WAS ALL ALONE WONDERING ONE DAY IN THE GARDEN THAT WHY I HAD AN INCOMPLETE LIFE??...WHAT I DEMAND IS WHAT I GET AND WHAT I SAY,IT TURNS INTO REALITY...MY MOTHER HAVE ALWAYS GUIDED ME THAT NOT TO WEAR MINIS IN TODAYS WORLD AND BEWARE OF SUSPICIOUS CHARACTERS..BUT I WAS THE ONE WHO HAD A NARROW MINDED THINKING THAT OLD PEOPLE HAVE THEIR ANXIETY...
THE TIME WHEN I WAS WALKING IN THE GARDEN I SAW A COUPLE OF FRIENDS WALKING INTO THE VILLA...THEIR CAR WAS PUNCTURED SO THEY HAD A NIGHT STAY IN THE VILLA ITSELF...THEY SAW ME STANDING NEAR THE POLE ALONE AND THUS CALLED ME....I HAD A WORD WITH THEM AND SOON WE WERE FRIENDS FROM STRANGERS...I MISSED THOSE DAYS WHEN I AND MY PALS WERE ALSO USED TO HANG OUT IN THE SAME MANNER....WHEN THEY ASKED ABOUT ME AND MY FAMILY I WAS SPEECHLESS AND DIDN'T SAID A WORD....STILL THEY WERE OK WITH ME...WE TALKED ALL NIGHT AND THE NEXT DAY WHEN I WOKE UP,THEY WERE ABOUT TO LEAVE AND I WAS REALLY SAD ABOUT IT BECAUSE I GOT THE BEST PALS AFTER A VERY LONG TIME...THEY TOLD ME THAT THEY WOULD COME AGAIN AND ALSO ASKED ME TO JOIN THEM FOR A TRIP TO BALAJI(A TEMPLE)BUT AS I KNEW THAT THEY WERE GOING TO THE TEMPLE I REFUSED..THEY ASKED FOR MY CONTACT NUMBER AND AGAIN I HAD NO WORD TO SAY...THEY WERE WONDERING THAT WHAT'S SO MYSTERIOUS ABOUT ME BUT STILL THEY DIDN'T GOT A CLEAR CLUE ABOUT IT....THEY SHOOK HANDS WITH ME AND GAVE ME A GOOD BYE HUG AND WENT FOR THEIR JOURNEY AHEAD....I WAS EXTREMELY SAD THAT THEY LEFT...I HOPE I WOULD HAVE NOT BEEN RAPED THE DAY WHEN I WAS OUT WITH MY BOYFRIEND AND HIS PALS FOR A TRIP...IF NOT THEN I WOULD HAVE BEEN ALIVE TODAY !

-NIHARIKA KOHLI(NAINA)

THANX FOR THE DAY

SOMETIMES BACK THERE HAPPENED SOMETHING...
YOUR HEART SAID TO MINE HEART ONE THING...

A DREAM WAS BORN...
AND THE FEAR WAS GONE...

A NEW LIFE WAS MADE...
YET IT WAS NOT PAID....

I KNEW YOU ARE MY PERFECT SOUL MATE...
ABOUT YOU THERE WAS NOTHING WHICH I HATE...

THANKS FOR ONE THING..
THE DAY WAS SPECIAL FOR SOMETHING...

-NIHARIKA KOHLI (NAINA)

HOPE

THOUGH I LOVED YOU SO...
STILL I HEARD A NO...

THOUGH YOU CAME BACK TO ME...
STILL IT WAS A MATTER OF TIME PASS TO ME...

THOUGH YOU DITCHED THEN...
STILL I KEPT WONDERING WHEN....

THOUGH I COMMITTED MY SOUL...
STILL YOU MADE IT ROLL..

THOUGH I AM LIVING DEAD NOW...
STILL YOU DON'T WONDER HOW....

THOUGH I UNDERSTAND THE REAL LIFE...
STILL MY HOPE TO BE YOURS IS ALIVE...

-NIHARIKA KOHLI (NAINA)

ONLY A MATTER OF TIME

9 LONG MONTHS WERE THE BEST DAYS OF MY LIFE...
THE TIME I HAD WITH YOU WAS A HOPE TO BE YOUR WIFE...

9 SECONDS OF THE HAPPINESS I HAD ON MY FACE...
WAS JUST BECAUSE MY LITTLE HEART MET YOURS IN THIS LIFE OF RACE...

9 MINUTES OF YOUR TOUCH MADE ME GO WILD....
YET I KNEW THAT I WAS BEHAVING LIKE A STUPID CHILD....

9 HOURS OF THE DAY WHEN I HAD THOSE TALKS WITH YOU....
MADE ME THINK MORE THAT WOULD I BE ABLE TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU....

9 DAYS WAS THE TIME WHEN MY FAMILY KEPT US APART...
YET I KNEW THAT YOUR HEART WILL BE MY PART...

9 AGES WOULD BE THE TIME NOW TO PAY YOU BACK I HAD...
NO MATTER WHAT I JUST WANT YOU TO BE GLAD....

9 TO 9 WAS JUST A MATTER OF TIME...
BUT I STILL HAVE THAT HOPE THAT LORD WOULD MAKE YOU MINE...

-NIHARIKA KOHLI (NAINA)

FIRST LOVE,FIRST LOSS

21ST APRIL WAS THE DAY WEN I COMMITTED MY HEART TO YOU...
BUT I WASN'T AWARE OF THE FACT THAT I AM COMMITTING MY LIFE TO YOU...

YOUR LOVE,YOUR ANGER AND YOUR CARE MADE ME FALL FOR YOU...
BUT I WASN'T AWARE OF THE FACT THAT I NEED TO PAY THAT BACK TO YOU....

THE SMILE I HAD ON ME WAS JUST BECAUSE OF YOU...
BUT I WASN'T AWARE OF THE FACT THAT I AM COMMITTING MY BREADTH TO YOU ...

NO MATTER WHAT THE WORLD SAY I WAS STILL READY TO GO CRAZY FOR YOU....
BUT I WASN'T AWARE OF THE FACT THAT I WOULD EVER HAVE A BREAK UP WITH YOU...

WHAT CAN THE WORLD SAY WHEN I AM READY TO COMMIT MY SOUL TO YOU....
BUT I WASN'T AWARE OF THE FACT THAT THERE WOULD BE A DAY WHEN I REALLY NEED TO DIE FOR YOU...

-NIHARIKA KOHLI (NAINA)

THREE THINGS OF LIFE..

AKON'S LIVE CONCERT

WELL,THIS WAS MY FIRST LIVE CONCERT I'VE EVA SEEN...I ACTUALLY WANTED TO ATTEND THE SHAKIRA'S CONCERT BUT I DIDN'T GOT THE PASSES FOR TAT...SO,NEVER MIND I CAN DO WID ALL...I KNEW ABT TAT CONCERT ABT A COUPLE OF WEEKS BEFORE IT HAPPENED BUT COZ OF MY LAZINESS I JUST WENT TO BUY THE PASS AT THE LAST DAY AT PLANET M,FARIDABAD AND THEY REFUSED ME SAYING TAT WE DNT HAVE TAT AND ENDED THE CONVERSATION SAYIN TAT U MAY GET TAT ONLT FRM SAKET,SOUTH EX. OR GK...I WAS LIKE MAD...SHIT MAN....CRAB MAN...SNAP MAN....I WENT BACK HOME AND SUDDENLY I WAS JUST BROKEN...I WAS ETERNALLY,INTERNALLY AND COMPLETELY LOST FOR AKON...I WANTED TO SEE TAT ANYHOW...I WONT CARE...I HAD A PHONE CHAT WID MANAN AS I HEARD PPL. TALKING TAT HE IS THE ONLY ONE WHO IS GOIN TO SEE TAT...HE MADE ME RELIEVED SAYIN TAT I WOULD MOST PROBABLY ARRANGE TAT FOR U BUT I ALREADY KNEW TAT HE WUD NOT AS IT WONT BE POSSIBLE AT THE LAST DAY...TAT NIGHT I REALLY BEHAVED BAD WID SAM...I FEEL SO SRRY FOR TAT...I THOUGHT I WUD LOOSE HIM TAT DAY....BUT WE BOTH MADE IT ALL SMOOTH AGAIN....WAT I TOLD SAM WAS NOT RIGHT AND WEN I TOLD HIM TO END TAT UP WAS THE WORSE AND WEN I TOLD HIM TAT -YOUR MONEY,YOUR PRESTIGE ARE ALL FAR APART FRM ME WAS THE WORST...SOMETIMES I JUST COMPLETELY LOST MYSELF AND REFUSES HIM FOR EVERYTHING...I TOOK HIM FOR GRANTED AND TAT WAS MY BIGGEST MISTAKE...BUT AS WE WERE BROKEN DOWN I REALIZED WAT I LOST...ITS BEEN A COUPLE OF TIMES WEN I WAS USED TO HAVE A FIGHT WID HIM THEN I WAS USED TO CRY AS IF I AM GONNA DIE BUT I WAS THE ONLY PERSON WHO FRANKLY TOLD HIM EVERYTIME TAT LETS BROKE UP THOUGH I KNEW TAT I WONT BE ABLE TO LIVE WIDOUT HIM...BUT STILL TAT ATTITUDE SUCKED MY LIFE...BUT AT TIMES I DIDNT REALIZED TAT WEN I CRY SO BADLY FOR HIM WEN I TEMPORARILY END MY REALTIONSHIP WID HIM THEN HOW WUD I LIVE IF HE ENDED TAT PERMANENTLY....I STILL CANT FORGET TAT PAIN...TIME HEALS SOMETHING BUT NOT EVERYTHING...FOR ME IT TOOK 9 MONTHS OF A HAPPENING RELATIONSHIP,1 SECOND TO END IT AND MY COMPLETE LIFE TO FORGET IT...17TH NOVEMBER WAS THE DAY WEN WE BOTH BROKE UP AND 25TH NOVEMBER WAS THE DAY WEN WE WERE COMPLETELY OUT OF EACH OTHER WEN HE MSGD ME TO FORGET HIM...BUT AFTER 17TH NOVEMBER I STILL HAD TAT HOPE TAT THIS FIGHT WUD ALSO END UP WID A SORRY BUT IT DIDNT...IT WAS A MISERABLE MOMENT FOR ME...ALRITE JUST FORGET SAM...AND BRING BACK AKON......I HAD A CHAT WID SAM ALL NIGHT AND IN THE MORNIN WEN I WOKE UP I WAS JUST MOVIN FRM HERE TO THERE FOR THE PASS...I TOLD SHAURYA,ARNAV,ARPIT,MANAN BUT IT ACTUALLY DIDNT WORKED...NOBODY WAS GOIN....I MADE A REQUEST TO THE GUY WORKIN IN PLANET M,SAKET TO KEEP 2 PASSES FOR ME OR ELSE OSAMA BIN LADEN WILL BLAST HIM...HE TOLD ME TAT HE COULD KEEP IT WID HIM TILL 2 SO I MAY GET TAT BEFORE 2 P.M. BUT IT WAS NOT POSSIBLE...BUT I AGREED TO HIM...HE STILL HAVE 8-9 PASSES....INDIANS NEVER LOST THEIR HOPE THE WAY I DNT...I WENT WID DAD AT 2 AND REACHED THR AT 5:30 AND THOSE WERE THE LAST 2 PASSES WHICH HE WAS HAVIN WID HIM AND A GUY STANDIN BESIDE ME WAS ALSO DIEING TO GET TAT AND GAVE ME A COLD LOOK WEN I BOUGHT IT FOR ME BEFORE HIM....SO MY DAD WAS ACTUALLY WONDERING TO GIVE TAT BACK TO HIM AS HE WAS REALLY LOOKIN FOR 1 MORE PASS...I JUST HELD MY DAD'S HAND TIGHTLY AND WALKED OUT OF THR...LATER I WAITED FOR AKON TO CUM FOR 2 HOURS STANDING IN A REALLY BAD ORGANIZED CONCERT...ALL MUD ALL AROUND AND NO PLACE TO SIT...AND LATER WEN HE CAME THEN TAT WAS LIKE AAHHH..AHHHH...AHHHHH.....DAMN KEWL...SEXY PERSONALITY.....NICE,AWESOME VOICE...I JUST LOVED AKON....I SCREAMED LIKE A SHEEP WEN HE ARRIVED.....I WAS A GUD ONE...AND HE STARTED HIS CONCERT WID SHAKEDOWN AND ENDED IT WID THE SWEET ESCAPE...LATER I REACHED HOME GAVE A BYE TO TAT SEXY CROWD IN MY MIND AND DAY AFTER TOMORROW I HAD MY MATHS EXAM AND I WAS 0% PREPARED FOR TAT....THE NEXT DAY MUM-DAD LEFT FOR DELHI AND I WAS ALL ALONE AND THE NEXT DAY-MONDAY MY EXAM WAS A CRAB...I SCORED 57 AND I MUST SAY IT REALLY WENT BAD...NOT UPTO MY MARK...

tour to pachmarhi

pancmari is a heaven on earth...we had a group of 8 members.-me,mum,dad,big b,uncle,massi,paurush and deepesh....we departed from delhi to pachamri at late night and we arrived in early morning....first of all,there were not enough hotels out there coz its not a developed place...i had a visit out there in 2001-2002....dnt remember much....so were searching for a gud hotel and at last we got a resort to stay....i was big,full of greenery...it was beau...we had a 4 day tour...we started our day by havin a chinese breakfast and later we visited the chauragarh-(a shiva ji's temple)...it was mind-blowin...fab...then we went to pandava caves...
bada mahadev-

Bada Mahadev cave is about 25 ft. width and 60 ft. in length, inside the cave is a pond filled with water seeping into it from the roof. Inside the cave is a ‘Shivaling’. On Maha-Shivratri a fair is held at this place and about 4 to 5 lakh devotees comes from all part of India to get the blessings of Load Shiva.
then the gupt mahadev-

The cave of Gupt Mahadev is about 400 meters away from the Bada Mahadev. This cave is so narrow that only one person can enter the cave at a time. Inside the cave, there is a Shivlinga. It is belived that Lord Shiva had taken refuge in this cave, when chased by the demon King ‘Bhasmasur’. Only two to three persons can sit inside the cave. The length of the cave is about 40 ft. In front of the cave there is a big idol of Hanuman.
we were tired enough and the sun was setting...so we had a dinner during our way to the resort...we walked from the restaurant to the resort by havin a cup of tea and i was so scared out there coz there was not even a sound of a drop of pin and fog all around a lil temple at the entrance of the resort made me really think abt it....the next day wen i woke up-me,big b and my cousins started playin cricket and then we went to the park which was nearby our resort and it started rainin and my slippers broke and i was the only one who was holdin a slipper in my hand and cumin to the resort all alone...i changed my footwear and then i agian went back..we played a lot...a loooottt......and later we had our breakfast and everybody wanted to have a seat on the head's chair...atlast i and gautam got tat...later i saw the rajat prapat(silver fall)....u wont believe it was so sexyyyyyy.....i started my way frm the top hill and it was a walkin distance of 1-2 or 3 kms....it was actually rainin...so we wore our raincoats and and move forward...it was full of greenary all around and it was beau...i saw many lil falls on my way....and for moment something hit my brother's head and later we saw tat it was mango fallin everywhere...we took the mangos during our way by breakin it frm the trees..and at last after a long time...i was at tat place...the water was like milk...it was so so clean...i never saw such kindda fall before...

i had a bath under the fall and i didnt want to step out of it....it was out of imagination too....wen we were cumin back then there was river passing by and the the stream was really fast...so i slipped over there nad my bro started catchin me..after a sec my dad was also cumin to save us and he also slipped and my 15-16 years old brother was holdin dad and her lil sis-tats me...and it was such an wakward situation...rest i visited many places...where they shotted for the film ashoka..i saw kareena and srk's pics over tat places....rest i visited-
* Satpura National Park
* Bees Fall
* Gupt Mahadev
* Dhupgarh (The highest peak of the Satpuras and Madhya Pradesh)
* Handi Kho (Deep Valley)
* Priyadarshini
* Apsara Falls
* Jatashanker
* Saunderkund
* Big Fall
* Duchess Fall

satpura ki rani is the name given to pachmari and i really think its the right name...it is a fab place wid nice weather....later i departed for ujjain at night and rest i'll take it further after a lil while...

ONE WRONG STEP TOOK ME TO HELL...BETTER LOOSE UR ATTI AND UR PRIDE FOR UR OWN SAKE..

if feel dead eventough i am living...i feel lonely eventhough everone is around me...i fell like crying eventough everybody else around me is laughing...i feel commiting sucide eventough everybody around me is planning their future...
1 thing tat sucks the most is luv...one wrong step...one misunderstanding can change ur entire life...i remember somebody told me one day tat"chooti-chhoti baatein bahot badi ho jati hai aur everything gets over coz 1 misunderstanding" and now i understood wat he meant to say me...now i realize wat i have lost...now i beg god to him back to me...now i cry every day and night for him....he told me one day tat start caring for me...but i heard it frm one ear of mine and took tat out frm my other ear...i am the biggest fool in this entire world...i was a kind of nastik some months back...but i apologize to make fun to luv...cum back plzzz plzzzz plzzzz its a request..i have complete plans for this-
listen if u get ur luv then be happy...spend time wid him....take care of him....
and if u dnt get it then live life till the day he doesnt get married and tats the
only day wen he got married to some other chick thenu loose the hope and u
are internally breaked...so tats the correct day to commit sucide..simple...i have
such a nice brain u see...marna toh hai hi ek na ek din....small-small tiny-tiny little-little mistakes changed me....galti kar ke hi sudhar hota hai...this is another thing which i have learned and tats the ultimate truth of life...i'll luv him till my last breath....he meant everything to me...he showed me a different face of mine....he is fab..i totally,completely,internally and extenally luv him...no matter if he ditched me thrice...

I KEEP MY FINGER CROSSED...I DNT WANT THIS FANTASY TO CHANGE INTO REALITY....

I AM NOT PAID ENOUGH TO BE GOOD TO YOU

KILLER ATTITUDE AND PRIDE MAKES A MAN FALL...
IT WOULD BE RATHER BETTER TO HAVE GRATITUDE INSTEAD....
RIGHT NOW I AM FULL ON TO KISS SOMEBODY'S ASS BCOZ TODAY WAS THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE...TAKING THINGS LIGHT DOESN'T ALWAYS WORK...PAY ME WELL AND SHAKE IT WELL AND LOOK AT YOUR CLASS BEFORE SAYING THAT TO ANYONE....I WONT GO IN COMPLETE DETAILS BUT EVERYBODY AROUND US IS A BIG AND A SUCKING BASTARD SO FORGET THE STATEMENT WHICH I JUST NOW GAVE IN THE STARTING AND MOVE ON AND HIT IT HARD!

IS TAT ME??damn sweet

HMM....i am quite confused abt it...wat am i doin...means wat am i acting as??....i did this around 7 years back and wat i knw abt it is tat i went on the stage...i said good mornin to all and then my teacher asked me tat do u want a candy...and i replied yes and i left the stage to get my candy...tats it...i actually do remember things like tat....i hate being a gal at the age of 7...i have dressing myself in tat skirt and all...shit..snap...crab...why cant to be a simple classi person...is it necessary to do stuff like tat??.....these were the words whic par said by me someday and now i just cant live widout a kohl in my eyes,a complete body massage and a body lotion,lip gloss,mascara,clips,accessories,mimis,backless/sleveless tops are something i am addicted to now....i cant image my life widout all these....its a kind of hell....my dad says tat the name of the person really affects...but earlier i wasnt use to agree on tat point but now...oh my god...wat shall i say....i really mean it now....niharika means-admire and a galaxy of stars but if u have a look at it in the hindi manner then niharika means somebody who keeps dreesing herself in the best and needs a complete and a perfect look and i spend all my time in doin tat....

forget it...were talkin abt my play wen i was 7...ya so i had a wonderful time in mother;s pride...wen i memorize things abt tat scul then i must say tat the scul was fab...it was one of the best scul in new delhi....and gautam accompanied me at tat time,...and 1 more moment wen it was my b'day...i satrted leakin salt water frm my eyes at tat time...i actually hate cream....i just dnt like eating pastries and cakes..i dnt like tat so everybody was wishing me a very happy b'day but i was the one who didnt even wore my b'day cap and i hate all of them...i just wanted to kill everybody i see around except my family....i was a very arrogant and rude kind of baby wen i was small...but no matters...watever ppl say???..

a visit to the cousin's place-karnal

i met her after a very long time..a time of around 3 years i guess..as gautam has left to NY...i extremely get bored at home and its the time to play holi...i left at 4 in mornin frm faridabad to karnal wid my neioghbours as their grandma stays thr and they have a visit after a week everytime...well thr was no music in the car and i was really bored wid it and in the mid way my uncle told my aunt to drive on the highway and i thought tat this wud be my last holi this time...but she drived raelly well...must appreciate her...i raeched thr around 8 and it was a safe tour..and i hugged my sis raelly hard....i was very glad to see her...we palyed a lot..we talked a lot...we enjoyed a lot...me,charu,samriti,kanika,kritika,kanishka,and krishna....we all together had a blast...krishna is 2-3 years old now...he is very sweet...very innocent...a sweet little baby who always have one word on this tounge for tat -tu toh ullu ki patthi hai...man just look at him...he is so clever at this age...we palyed holi as if the bulls are fighting wid each other...i was full of colurs and i was shaking as i was feeling cold after sometime....my colurs didnt go....i tried a lot...i had a shower for 2 hours but still i my face was resembling a joker's face....i was red,pink,blue,purple...i was just full of colurs...after playin holi...we had a meal of sambhar-vada which were speacilly bought frm mathura nad i coluld never forget tat...me and charu had a really nice talk and spend really nice time together and she showed me the vcd of her farewll party and we all sis slept on one bed wid each for an hour and we keep wisperpering into each others ears....in the evening i met jyoti maasi and later uncle and maasi took me to haweli---its a tourist place in karnal...it was really nice..it was a kind of punjabi's tradition....i saw the well and i pulled out a bucket of water frm it...i had a ride of camel after a very long time wid my sis and we went for the go -karting and believe me tat i am a very bad rider...we enjoyed a lot out thr..we had a light meal of jalebi,pizza,sweet corn.etc.and i got many a photos clicked....and later we went to mc d in our way and had an ice cream and we reached home..i,charu and samriti slept at 3 at night...all night we kept talking abt the ghost's and black magic...in the moring wen i woke up next day...my sis had left for her tution and till then i watched tv and had a breakfast and curd of karnal is really nice....i really liked the curd which i had it wid my breadroll and cutlets..later wen she came we again start talking and i left wid my uncle after sometime for home,and i raeched home at 8 and i really miss my sis now....i wish tat i have another visit soon....

tour to chandigarh

well,i dnt remember much as i was of age 10-11 tat time...but wat i remember is tat chandigarh is a clean and green place...i really liked it...it has a wonderful environment...wherever i went i just found punjabi's all around...and the meal was awesome as well....tat chicken tandoori,crispy murg,patiala peg,allo ka parantha,makki ki roti de sarso ka saag....luv it...i am a all kind of foddie...i visited many places out there...we were 8 members -gautam,deepesh,paurush(my brothers)and mum-dad and massi and uncle and ofcourse me u silly...we had a very gud time together...it was a kind of a get together for us...chandigarh is the best planned city in india today...its architecture is sizzling..i saw the hidden valley,rock garden,rose garden and the open hand monument and rock garden is spread in 20 acres of land...i found diff. diff types of rocks out thr..i sat on them and i scratched them but unfortunately my nails broken bcoz of tat...i swing a lot on the swings..i had every ride wid gautam and my cousins ...i sat in the trolly and that mind blowing view..oh my god...hopw can i forget abt it...it was awesome...i got many pics clicked..i saw a hilly area in chandigarh where i went up in the trolly...its a kind of a graden out there....and it was really nice and fresh evironment...thje weather was really gud...and the cuisinee of chandigarh is fab...i dnt remember further...forget it...but its a lovin city....very neat...very clean...very green and only only beautiful ppl visit tat place like me...rite???

MY TOUR TO NASHIK

NASHIK SEEMS TO BE A REALLY NICE CITY..ITS WELL-DEVELOPED...NICE SCHOOLS-SYMBIOSIS INTERNATIONAL...DAMN....WEN WILL I GET A CHANCE TO GO THERE??...WELL,I FIRST STARTED MY JOURNEY BY VISING A FEW TEMPLES OUT THERE...IT WAS ALL THE GOD AND GODDESS OF THE NINE PLANETS WHERE CLICKIN PHOTOS WERE STRICTLY RISTRICTED....THEN I SAW THE GANGOTRI RIVER AND ME AND MY AUNT ROSY SAW SOMETHING LYING IN THE HOLY RIVER AND WE WERE JUST RUNNIN AWAY FRM IT AS WE THOUGHT IT WAS A SEA ANIMAL OR SOMETHING BUT LATER WE CAME TO KNW TAT IT WAS A POLY BAG...AND WE WERE JUST HIDEING OUR FACE FRM EVERYBODY AS WE TOLD EVERYONE ABT IT TAT THR IS AN ANIMAL IN THE RIVER...I I DRANK THE WATER OF THE RIVER JUST COZ EVERYBODY OUT THR WAS DRINKIN IT...I JUST DID TAT FOR THEIR SAKE BUT I FIND THE WATER VERY SWEET AND I EVEN FILLED MY BOTTLES WITH TAT WATER AND I DRANK IT FOR THE WHOLE DAY...I WAS QUITE LIKING IT...THEN I SAW THE PLACE WHERE KUMBH KA MELA HELDS...LATER WE WENT TO ANOTHER MATA TEMPLE AND AFTER CUMIN OUT OF IT I HAD PANI-PURI OF MAHARASHTRA....AND GUESS WAT I SAW MY AUNT SWINGING ON THE SEE-SAW WITH HER KIDS AND I MY UNCLE WAS LIKE -"ROSY WAT R U DOIN"??...BUT I WAS ENCOURAGED BY TAT AND I ACCOMPANY HER LATER FOR TAT....AFTER HAVIN A LITE MEAL I WENT TO THE GOD SHIVA'S TEMPLE WHICH WAS MIND-BLOWIN...IT WAS SO COOL...SO CHILLED AND FULL OF FLOWERS...THR WE CAN ONLY SEE THE SHIVLING BY LYING DOWN ON THE FLOOR BY LOOKIN INTO THE MIRROR..IT WAS FAB...LATER I VISITED SOME OF GOD LAXMAN'S,RAMA'S AND SITA'S TEMPLE...AND NASHIK IS THE ONLY PACE WHR GODDEESS SITA IS WORSHIPED..IT EVEN SAW A CAVE IN WHICH GODESS SITA WAS HIDING HERSELF FRM RAVAN...ITS BECOMES SMALL AS I TOOK MY STEPS FORWARD...THR WAS A MOMENT WEN I WAS LYING ON THE FLOOR AND THEN I WAS ABLE TO PASS FRM TAT CAVE...IT IS QUITE A NICE PLACE....AND LAST I VISITED THE HAMUMAN'S TEMPLE AND CUM BACK TO HOTEL AFTER HAVIN LUNCH...

love like hell (poem composed by me)

Where do you go?
I miss you so.
seems like its been forever,
tat u've been gone.
so cum back home.
i planned it all well,
but now it seems like hell.
can't u hear me callin?
can't u see me fallin?
where do u go ?
i miss u so....

good dayz always goes on,
but knw i guess i was so wrong..
i ma sorry for the prolong.
i need to hear tat happy bell..
coz thr is nothin good to tell...
where do u go?
i miss u so...

boy,i wish tat u can hold me wen i ma lonely...
wen i need someone i can talk to u phonely...
i saw u starring me near the pole...
c'mon let's again have tat rock n roll...
can't we start again..
i miss tat clapping rain...
i dnt wish to listen another no...
where do u go>???
i miss u so....

-NIHARIKA KOHLI (NAINA)

LOVE

love is the closest thing to magic and it is the ultimate truth of life...i can truely say tat coz i have experienced it well.but beware!boys are pigs....forget it...
it is easy to say those 3 simple words-i luv u...which can do wonders for u in ur life but on the other hand it is also easy to say-i hate u which can take u to death...9 months back i was somebody who was used to make fool of lovers tat u are cryin for a guy who has left u in the midway..wat the f**k??....i thought tat love does not exist but it does. i luv i luv i luv____(fill in the blanK)...one who knws me well knws wat i am about to write thr...guyz go and watch bachna ae haseeno...tats ur kindda movie....realize the importance of love....it has a worth which nobody can ever pay....its not a part of a fairy tale....cryin for ur x is noT easy....askin lord to give him back to u every day and night is not easy...forgetting tHOSE moments u spend wid him is not easy..nothing is easy....change urself for the one u luv...dont expect him to change for ya...show how much u luv him...dont wait for him to show u tat how much he luvs u...its not a training centre....wat say???be down to earth...dnt try to fly high...or else u'll have a fracture in ur wings someday...a broken bone which can never be cured...

IF U HAVE LOVE U HAVE EVERYTHING...NO MATTER WHERE U ARE OR HOW U ARE??>....IF U DONT HAVE IT NO MATTER WAT ELSE U HAVE....

MY BIG B-GAUTAM (MISS YA)

huh...miss ya gautam....now its the time to realize the imp. of a big b....i really miss him and now i need him back...i never tie a rakhi to my cousin brothers....so i am felling really lonely this year...gautam is somebody who is like a darling to me...i am glad tat i have a brother who is smart,gud-lookin,intelligent,muscular,attractive and my list woukd never end for him....i knw the way he is...he is just fantastic...i can't listen a word against my brother...i miss those dayz wen every year on raksha bandhan i was used to demand 5000/- cash or a big amount or an expensive gift every year frm him and guess wat he always used to give me as much money i demanded frm him..he took tat cash frm dad and after a couple of dayz i was used to return him and say tat u spend it on urself bcoz i get wat i demand...and i was a walking-bank for my brother...he never calls me naina...he always call me"naina seth"as i am the one who has alwayz provided him wid cash each by stolin it frm mum's purse or by asking it frm dad or by anyway...i never refused him and so to he....he too never refused me....miss ya...hope u'll cum back next year on this day.....

night angels

i am somebody who just luv night...night is darling to me...my good mood depends on the night..i am an angel at night and a devil in the mornin as well...night turn me on...i feel lovin others and doin terribble stuff at night...night can change me in anyway which nobody else can do...i luv wearin those short-short,lose-lose night suites and sleping wid a softtoy just do wonders for me....on the other hand i hate mornin...i hate sun risin on my head...it just sucks...bcoz in mornin tat same borin scul....those stupid people by ur side..oh ho ho!!just dn't make me think of tat...forget it!

let's talk abt night again...tat lovely moon,tat lovely millions of stars around you and lightening everywhere...i feel like livin in a heaven wen i see night-time...

a typically punjaban chick-misz naina

this is something u can call me and which really suites me...i luv punjabi tradition...no matter wat people say...i just dnt care....the way they act,they dance,they sing,they talk,they eat,they drees-up...i mean everything...the entire thing...i am truely a punjaban by blood and by heart...a chick of the kohli's family(a punjabi family)...i was born in new delhi but our family frm the back is basically frm ambala(punjab)...
i just luv eating chicken...a crisy,fat and a healthy chicken...i just can't digest even a glass of water if i dn't get non-veg 4-5 times a week(tuesday is exceptional)...rest i luv bhangra...a hard bhangra...just goin crazy and i wish--- i am so so so much desperate to turn above 18 years old as i want to try a patiala peg...i luv seeing punjabi's havin gud,fresh non-veg wid tat patiala peg...i hope i turn 18 soon...i luv dressin myself in salwar-kameez wen i was 10-11 years old..i just luv speakin punjabi...listenin punajbi just do wonders for me....everybody luv their tradition and i am one of them...i wish to settle down in a village of punjab for 2 weeks as i want to experiece my entire tradition...i want to run in the farms and the fields of punjab wearin a salwar-kameez with a dupatta in my hand...i knw it sounds silly....but i really want to do it once....i want to do folk bhangra wid the entire group...punjabi chicks are full of attitude and my companion says tat i have the most....which is really not true...but they really dn't knw tat how much attitude my sisters have...dude u have not seen my sisters...they are devils as well as angels...all of us are full of attitude and i guess i have the least out of them...dn't u dare say tat i have attitde becoz u have really not seen wat actually a complete attitude gal is....beware!

achievements of life

hmm..wow!!i am proud of u
-these words are something tat i really luv to listen it frm my dad...he raelly wanted me to succede in life higher and higher...and i just luv my dad....i am basically really gud in sports and i luv to hang out for any camp or somethin adventurous...i just luv doin tat...i am always awarded for sports and i hope i'll do it better next time...waise gals of the punjabi families are lazy sometimes or u can say tat they are always full of attitude and demand for the best in life...and i am one of them..a gud-lookin chick of the punjabi family widout brains...but hey!i play well all the time ....

i actually like runnin a lot...i just dn't get tired and i dn't feel tat it is bored...its a fun-luvin sport to me....i have participated in-catwalk ,100 mtr. race ,200 mtr.,400 mtr.,long jump,relay...this was of the year 2007 in my scul wen i had my sports day....and catwalk i did it wen i was in 4th or 3rd grade i guess...i have never lost a race and i'll never lost it...
WAT I THINK I DO AND WAT I DEMAND IS WAT I GET...i am quite a lucky kindda person u see...

friends for life

friends are the most important part of anybody's life...they are somebody frm the outside world for me whom i spend and share every moment of my life...tanvi,bharti,nandani and nikita are darling to me...i just can't even spend a secound widout them...out of these 4 tanvi is somebody whom i call it as my lil sister...she is fab....they r my soul....i still remember every moment i spend wid them...and the most memorable was wen i went to a scul trip to dheradun and mussorie wid nikita and a trip to nanital and palampur wid nandani and rest a scul camp wid bharti and tanvi itself in the scul...i am frm last 3 years wid them and i guess we guyz have really get along wid each other very well...i hope we never get separated frm each other...

A TEENAGE LIFE

well...its gud to have spend time wid family,buddies and rest but i guess i am beauty widout brains and i have really experienced it...its far better to accept wat ur mum-dad says instead of arguing wid them...they can take u on safe tracks...i keep my fingers crossed now...i wud never ever take any decission myself...i am 14 and i have a brain of 8...wat the crab??...and i have no shame to say this coz it is the ultimat truth of my life...i have always scored well in exams but beside the books there is a different world and i am extremely bad in judging people...really so....u come across wid every obstacles in ur life at this point of time...i wish tat my big b-gautam wud be here by my side to help me figure-out such things...but nobody knws where life can take you...it all depends on time....and time heals everything....forget it man....

my visit to shani shingnapur

it was a gud experience...i dnt like to discuss the whole story abt it...but it was gud...its a nice place to see...must visit durin ur way to shirdi...its been said tat lord shani's frame was once found in a river flowin in tat city...so some of the ppl gathered out thr and touched tat frame wid a stick and blood started cumin out it...so lord shani gave a blessin to all tat nothin wud be stealed frm this city so thr shud be no windows and doors over so...and its quite amazin to see tat it is really so..the hotels,house even the washroom out thr is widout a door and a window....
wen the ppl of the village picked tat frame they took some mtrs away and frame fell down....thr they build a temple of lord shani which is really famous now....the frame was picked byand it is said tat it wud be more nice if bhatija and mama together go to worship lord shani in shingnapur....

my visit to shirdi

well it was quite a gud experience bcoz bfore my visit i had no faith in such super natural powers but now i can say tat it really worked for me atleast...it was wonderful...i really liked it...it was an awesome experience...i come to knw abt many things abt sai baba...it was fabulous....this was my third visit to shirdi and after cumin back i can really say gud abt it this time...it was not much crowded this time coz of bad weather as compared to my previous visit to shirdi...man u can't imagine??...i have seen a billion of ppl cumin to visit shirdi on new year,2008 and 26 th january,2008 and i was just gone mad...i keep my fingers crossed tat thank god we got the passes for the vip entry or else i would have faint tat day.....and on 1st jan a man frm andhra pradesh i guess donated 100 crores over there and it is said tat shirdi wud be one the most popular and well-proccesing city some day and the entire temple frm inside is mad of gold...old is gold i say..

dheradun

i woke up..i had a shower...i dressed myself and then 1 more news??gueesss wat now??
i am out wid such family...kisi ki sunte hi nahin hai...i want to see the entire place but no...yes is never on their tongue....i dnt knw why i planned a trip??...
forget it!!

listen wats next>>>>>
they told me tat we wud see a budha temple which is nearby coz we have come far away frm dheradun and cant reach back...ok...so i thought it wud be a bull-shit again but i was wrong...my god!wat a temple!!it is third larget budha temple in the whole world...its mind-blowin...i liked it...i actually luved it...
no matter wat....
it was awesome...i had an awesome experience...it was fabulous...
i saw the entire temple and then we had chinese meal-momos,manchurian,haka noodles and bla bla bla...and i left for home sweet home...but look now as i reached my uncle's house first then iffa awards were cumin on the tv...i need to reach my home as soon as possible but no...1 mor no...have dinner and then go...tat old family to family drama....u r insultin us man??...have dinner and then go>???...crab man
asshole....

as my silly idiotic time passed out thr we left for home and wen i raeched awards were over...my destiny...its really never works...i hate it man....
so this was all about
wonderful dayz of my life...............

trip to mussorie...waise not actually

huh!!so guyz i was fully ready to go to mussorie this mornin...we again had a bath in ganga...got a few photos clicked,had breakfast and we left for mussorie then...none of us had a bath again after cumin back frm ganga as we all planned tat we'll take a shower in mussorie as we were late...as usual.....but who knws wat's next....its all destiny....
On our way to mussorie my dad and my mum gave me some of a beautiful comments tat i am blind and deaf...is tat really so??....waise sounds gud na??....not really...huh...
we had a damn bad traffic...a traffic of 1 complete day...can u imagine???....how will we bath???,.....everybody started wonderin tat wat wud be next???
well...we managed anyhow and we first went to visit kempty falls...i again had a blast...chilled water...fir se ghus gayi paani mein...and 1 more trolly..wow!!....2 blasts at a time....

then i have a sandwich in a bekar sa restro as there was no other option left....i was hungry...and guess wat??
my mum asked the waiter tat "sandwich kis cheeze ka hoga"???she meant to ask tat wat wud bae the ingredients...and tat follish replied tat "bread ka hoga"....how silly is tat???....and 1 more drama-my uncle asked tat "do u have mango shake??"...he said yes and later my uncled asked him tat"mango se banaoge voh??"...man r u guyz out of ur senses...stop tat crab...no more entertainment...
i again came across a huge tarffic jam for nearly around 4 hours and again i was hungry...i need food...
after sittin in the car for so long i and dad walked and went till the proper city of mussorie coz i really need to go to the washroom....and it was again rainin...later,we had dinner and my dad and uncle decided to go back home as no hotel available...crab man...no more...not another shokin news....everybody started pointin toward me tat we told u not to move out for a visit in vacations to such places...its over-crowded and i guess they were rite and i was wrong...no matter...i started cryin...they started scoldin but still i was leakin salt water......
but look wat happen...
destiny??
the tyre of the car got penchered and we had a stay in some hotel a few kms. away frm dheradun...everybody was restless...we had a sleep and rest u may find out in my next chapter...gud n8..sweet dreams....

tour to haridwar

hmm...at last thank god i am leavin frm this hot-hot place to a cool-cool place....
so,i departed frm delhi wid my mum-dad and my uncle's family at nite for haridwar first...i reached there safely and hapily ofcoure coz i am misz naina...misz attitude...misz naagin or watever u can call me...its upto u.....i was so restless ...so sleepy but i didnt sleeppp.started my morin wid a hot aloo ka parantha and my hair man>>>wavy sholdered -length hair...i hope i was bald instead of havin wavy hair...i pressed them wid my hair-press so welll and wen i went out it started rainin and my ugly hair were nicely seen after gettin washed...god i hate my hair....
u guyz knw wat!!!innova is such a crab man.....we were 7 members of family and realtion...and 1 driver and me,mum and maasi sat on the back seat of the car and oh my god only i knw how i have managed wid those 2 women...i sat and traveled a way of around 5-6 hours like a rat....mum and massi are not tat slim--trim tat we 3 can adjust on 1 seat dude??.....
alrite forget it...
then i went for a bath in ganga wid tat stupid weather....coz it was rainin u see....but it was awesome experience..i luved havin a bath out thr coz i never did tat before....it seems as if i was in heaven in a chilled water.....but the water was full of sand and mud....never mind...not a big deal......
_alrite listen to me now....
after havin a bath in a holy river ....i saw a few temples ...and trolly ...yes man...i luved tat.....i luv sitin in the trolly...no matter if i live or die....i just luv tat cold breeze,high hills,greenery all around....its just fantastic....mind-blowin......then then then
then we had a dinner and a have a gud sleep at nite...gud n8......catch u later...till then u see my next pic....waise i am gud-lookin na??

my summer vacation

Man! wat the f**k...
well i was damn excited wen my vacations started but now it seems like hell...i was so much desperate to sleep on my cosy bed for a long time...no tutions....always chillin out in ac...always eatin and drinkin like and elephant but hey!i am still slim...u knw me na??i cant move on wid tat fat tummy and a heavy butt..shit...it look so ugly....
so,let me take this chapter forward...
i am so much bored in my vactions tat i want to kill everybody....this bull-shit weather??i am pissed coz of it....hmm...i miss my scul dayz..i miss bharti,tanvi and nandani...my 3 best frnds,my soul.....they all r sweethearts to me....
as the dayz move on i was gettin bored -bored and bored ....no sam ...no masti ...no drama...dn't keep thinkin tat who is sam???
hope for the best so let's just fuck the rest....wat's gonna happen???god !! help me....coz i even eat less non-veg now....