The day i first saw you,something clutched into my mind about you.I thought it was an infatuation and i passed away.Later i saw you on a school trip and could never forget that moment wen you were standing beside me and i kept starring you continuously without blinking my eyes.A hunk in the blue colored tee with a cute smile,an extra tooth and 2 studs in the right ear.I was totally,internally and externally fallen for you.The tour changed my life.At the entire trip i kept looking at you,i kept following you but i forgot that i have a life to live of my own.When we were coming back from the tour i slept next to your seat in the train and whole night my eyes were on you.It was a kind of a craziness and madness you can say but whatever it was it was wonderful.Later we arrived back and you were lost from my eyes but i still remembered you in my heart.Everything was smooth for a couple of months but after sometime an extreme bad moment took place in my life when my pal told you about me and you betrayed me.A dream was broken and a life ended.I tried my level best to forget you and moved on with my life.
As some months passed i could actually believe that i am forgetting u but on the other hand i always kept wondering about you.I myself can't understand what actually happened to me because i could not believe that it was love because i was a kid at that time and i am still a kid.As time passed you told me to tie a rakhi to you and i did.Though i was quite hurt about it because i don't know you.i never had a word with you and everything was done.so why should i tie one one to you.I hate him for that.
After doing so every lil hope was lost,everything was over.I again faced a mess and moved on.
Even after that he was not completely flushed out of my life.He again took an entry by asking for a relationship to be done.As i loved him i didn't refused him.I said yes and spend a month with him and he left me,he destroyed me,he broke my trust.In other words "HE USED ME".I again tried to forget him but i couldn't.I loved him more than i love anything else in this world.That was the first time i saw myself crying for a guy though nothing was much serious between us.
After a couple of months he proposed me on orkut and i approved.We had a long long time together with each other and started falling more in luv.i started living for him.i committed my life to him.then i passed through another shock when he told me that he wasn't serious for me and it was just a time pass but meanwhile he also told me that he is now serious and wish to continue with me.i was damn serious for him so i spend the other moments also with him.we started knowing each other better and even started hanging out with each other.i met him several times and the moments i spend with him were the best moments of my life.i still luv him.around the month of October-November he started ignoring me and i felt that he is going away from me.i tried my level best to keep him happy that time.i never refused him for anything but even i came to know from my pal that he is using me but i didn't believed it coz i was blind in his love.i called him home.shared a few moments with him and the way he behaved with me that time i was quite sure that he is no more interested in me but i never loosed my hope.i still had faith in him and gave our relationship another chance.but soon he left me and i now live every moment like a dead person in this alive world.i cried a lot a lot a lot for him.i can even bet the world now that even if 100000 people gets one and united and started loving him but still their love will fail in front of me bcoz i luv him more than anybody else love him in this world.i have committed my life to him...i have committed my soul to him and how could anybody live without a soul.though he was unfaithful to me but still i am ok.i want to see him glad.i need him to get the happiness of this whole world.time heals my pain a bit but not the whole.i still have him in my tiny heart and nobody else.I'll kiss death in his arms if i wont get him and i have no shame to commit this in front of the whole world that i luv him more than i luv anythin else in this world ,even more than i luv myself.i still have that faith in you because when your heart reached mine the first word you told me was that "TRUST ME".Think of it bcoz this seldom lonely star is livin for you in this mean world.
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