I loved every shade of you

I loved the way you looked me,
your eyes so bright and deep..
I loved the way you touched me,
your hands with a current to flow..

I loved the way you made me glad,
and the way you showed you care..
I loved the way you said 'I LOVE YOU',
and the promise that you are always there..

I loved every shade of you,
hoping that you'll be mine..
But didn't had any specialty in me,
To make you move along..

Childhood memories

I remember those days..
When we were all lost in the maze..

Lost with friends who were always full on..
Who lost the touch in this race of life..

Playing together and hitting it hard..
Always making daddy's mind scarred..

Getting stitches at each day of life..
never thought we would do such strife..

Talking shit and hearing shit..
was our day-to-day job which we've now quit..

The friends which were loved the most..
gets separated from the one which was close..

Badly miss the moments spent..
the time through which we happily went..

We today have the last hope of our link..
The memories we drew in our mind,we see at our every blink..

Dedicated to the one who is always been remembered somehow and somewhere in my tiny little heart-{Lovina,Ayush,Abha,Appu,Varun,Vishal,Nikita,Rashim,Avi.}

Friends

A friend like you is always a darling,
A friend like you gives me sparling..

A friend like you knows when I am sad,
A friend like you makes me glad..

A friend like you is always smart,
A friend like you will never depart..

A friend like you is honest and true,
A friend like you are really a few..

A friend like you doesn't counts my wrong,
A friend like you is always there for long..

A friend like you if moves away,
A friend like you is there in my heart to stay..

{For my best pals-Tanvi & Nandani}

My love for you will never die

Life without you is like a soul without a heart..
which cannot be depart by such misconception..
but I now believe that we had a feeling of being set apart..

Life without you is like shoes without socks..
It might seems senseless..
But its a way to build the life's building blocks..

Life without you is like a morning without a sun..
which gaves me a faded image..
and I now I feel that it's all done ..

Life without you is like a whisky without a rye..
to wake me up and let me know..
that my love for you will never die...

My visit to Jaipur

Jaipur is quite a nice city..but all tat forts are quite boring to see...i had to walk so long to see all such forts..i basically didn't liked anything out there..dad didn't accompanied us as he was buzy with work..mum,me,uncle,maasi and my cousins went to jaipur..we saw all those bakwas forts and water of jaipur is so so so bad,,its so salty and the each time i used to have a shower it just pissed me off..jaipur is nice..i am not against it but its not just my type..i've never seen all such museums and forts in delhi and travelling so long to see thse in jaipur was not at all nice..the next evening after coming back from some fort{i dont remember the name}we all had a word with each other regading chowki dhani tat whether we should go or not..i was really restless and everybody was suggesting me to have a cup of tea so tat i could come back into my good modd.and these idiots{my brothers}had me a cup of tea and later on went to cafe coffee day to have a nice cup of coffee..i gave them an extremely cold look and they took me along..ccd the service was really bad...1 hour to serve 3 coffees was more than enough..i was really hungary and i did't got anything to eat there and there was a huge traffic everywhere..we went to some theatre and tickets were already booked..my uncle's nephew was staying in jaipur and inspite of having an approch at every step of jaipur she was unable to provide us with the tickets..they own a 4 star hotel in jaipur we all stayed there..the next day we went for ajmer..i loved ajmer..i loved to see the mosque and the dargah..it was really nice and i really wish to go there again..it was awesome..mind blowing..we also had plans to go to pushkar but we didn't had much time so we came back home..

Uncle-Aunt's 25th marriage anniversary

Well,the journey was quite hectic.if we would have travelled towards the Agra side instead of goin to karnal then i hope i would have seen the taj mahal atleast once.but guess wat i have seen people belonging to Agra and haven't seen taj mahal once in their life.forget it.we reached after a having a long long journey of around 6 hrs and as soon as we reached the born dancers of karnal were buzy in their food and dance as usual.i cannot believe the people of their karnal are so much into food,music and dance.they eat like elephants and later on says that humari health hi kya hai.i must say my mom belongs to a very khata-peeta khaandan.my sis intoduced me to her cousins belonging to chandigarh..anywayz,maasi was buzy getting dressed up and the day was not so chillin so i thought tat i would be able to manage with my halter dress..we got dressed up and took us hours and hours to get ready..everything was so ulta-pulta and 1 hour for everything was quite less..i really had an extremely bad hair day tat day..I pressed my hair a couple of times..i applied everything onto it altogether -leave on conditioner,serum,mousse,hair spray,hair gal.etc.etc. and it all messed up..and everybody was watchin me as if i am an animal who has ran away from a zoo..i somehow managed with it and went on for the party..and jiski party thi were all coming late..guests were present and uncle's family was absent..jaate hi all got mad and started with their horrible dance moves..the dj was organized really well.arrangement was good but i guess instead of booking a banquet they should have organised it in some open area..but it was good for me because it was cold outside and i wont be able to wear my dress in open..we continued with everything...met all-charu,samriti and other kapoor family..but tony was missing from the party..i had a sip of whisky tat day..it was not tat bad but even after just a sip of it my head and my stomach was paining like anything..i had a little soda after it and then was relieved for sometime..everybody missed gautam and deepesh-my big brothers who are always missing from such parties..the get together was nice..everything went welll...i too dance as if i am drunk..i met divya{charu's best frnd}..it was nice meeting her...kanishka has always been my darling,my sweetheart..luv her..met her was really gald to meet her and later on we came back home...

Miss lonely

I am fussed in this world..
Just wanted to be swirled..
I need my big B back..
I need my happiness back..

The time I spent before..
had been so happening always..
so now where have been my smile..
which I had it at the hallways..

Mirror give me the faded image..
and I realize my pain each day..
a girl like me in this cage..
have nothing left except to pray..

A girl like me who was always full on..
now seems every moment to be suck on..
Why this happened to me,tats so hard??
Will every moment of my life retard??

-Niharika Kohli {Naina}

I miss you

I left you bcoz of my x..
who made me believed that he'll be my present..
I was enjoying every moment spent..
But I didn't thought whats next..

I apologize for what I did..
And need you back in my life..
Promise to be with you at the Hid..
and will never run back to my past..

I knew he was unfaithful..
and the same I did with you..
though I don't love you...
But still I miss you boo...

-Niharika kohli {Naina}

A new me-Misz Naina !

Was betrayed in love.
Was a lot in sorrow.
Wanna live again.
Wanna feel again..

What we had was totally a shit.
A life with a guy like you,
I definitely wanna quit.

Don't feel a need of you.
I have my own life to live.
Will end up this way,
I really had no clue.

I will be a new Naina again.
That joyful nature and killer attitude,
will make me alright then.

A new life,
A new beginning.
A new spirit,
And new peers to move on with.

Get lost.
Don't fuck my mind,
I don't need you.
I don't miss you.

-Niharika Kohli {Naina}

ALL DONE!

The game is over!
the chapter is close.
Our love ended.
what else one knows.

who cares about your apology!
I know its all fake.
It took time to heal the pain.
But this time I am Awake.

I thank you for coming back again.
so atleast I knew that I was wrong.
standing all alone in the pain,
It has made me more strong.

Go away,I know you are not mine.
running after you is not my point.
Its not that without you I'll not be fine,
I can manage somehow,anyhow,anyway..

You ruined my life..
then why should I talk to you.
Am I mad that I'll do a hard strife..
For such a person like you..

Hope to forget you completely soon.
so that I can start a new life.
A life without you with a complete new moon.
I can adjust,I may guarantee you..


Never fall in love,it will betray you till your last breadth......
-NIHARIKA KOHLI{NAINA}

Not fine!

I am not fine with you been gone..
Always dream of the time foregone..

You left me in this world of sorrow...
Always kept thinkin in enthusiasm of the morrow..

You made my mind go fizz,it just blows..
Perhaps its the wrong path we chose..

The mirror gave me a faded image..
runnin after the time to chase..

I would never turn back and see you again..
you have always left me in this world of pain..

Where were you when I left blank?
It was more than a hard anger spank..

Is this the day I've been waitin for?
standin still and hearin the roar...

Why you're rangin me now?
What you think I've missin you somehow...

Its not the love-sick thing anymore..
the game is over with that harcore..

I am not fine with you been gone..
always dream of the time foregone..
-Niharika {Naina}

Thrs nothin more

From where shall I start?
Till where do I end?
Your words were true,
what else shall I pursue?

My ignorance to you,
held my breath tight.
I was afraid whether I made it right?

Your question to me..
always left me blank..
but the memories you drew I make you thank..

What can I say?
we went wrong and lost each other,
and there's nothin I can hope further..

It hurts me talkin to you like this..
it always make my mind go fizz..

just lets be practical..
our realtion is just been tactical..

its not an unbreakable bond anymore...
its as bad as a snore..

Its better if I ignore you this way...
this would fade your memories gray..
whatever i did was right...
don't take me wrong...
its for our own future bright...

this would be the end...
I'll always hope you to be mine..
everythin would be just fine...

from where shall I start ?
till where do I end?
I am okay so far..
so that we would shine like a star..
yet I am not sad..
because lord has always set somethin nice for the lovers mad..
-NIHARIKA KOHLI
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AH ! MY BIRTHDAY

It was fab. this time...on my b'days nite i waited for sam's call whole nite hopin that he wud be the the one to wish m first but he didnt as usual..i really hate him frm the core of my heart for that...he shud atleast wish me at 12...tarun was the first to wish...later himanshu,vinay and best pal-tanvi wished at the midnight...
the next day wen i woke up i had an off frm scul....i aaceesed my gmail and i found sam to be online..i had a word wid him and he abused me...i just left blank that time...i thought i wud never talk to him ever again...later everythin was alrite and i had a phone chat wid him for almost an hour or even more than tat...i took a shower,i dreessed up and i went to nirula's...durin my way to nirula's i had a phone chat wid sam and he told me tat he is here...i didnt believed and i went late..wen i reached there jyoti told me taht he was here and all tat stuff..i fucked off myself and was really raelly really depressed...forget it..we had a meal and later we moved on to crown interiors..we guyz end it up at 6:30 p.m. and i watched a movie wid mum-dad and had dinner and reached back home...the day was fine better than my previous b'day..i hope every b'day goes like this..i had the company of my best peers this time-nandani,tanvi,jyoti,alisha and manvi...luv them all...hope to be together as alwayz...

Why do I always suck a romantic and a precious moment..?

Today i again fought wid him....am i that dumb??...i didnt said anythin..why do he always take me wrong???there was nothin to fight abt..its not only me who can save those precious moments even sam should think abt it...its a hard time now for me to control..bette change urself tooo...aise kaam nahi hota hai...its a big deal now...how long a relationship can be carried off like this??we guyz really need to end it...wenever i fought wid u ,i wish to kill u and me both and start a new life being brother and sister in the next birth...watever we had today it was okay...but we both really need to think abt it...i apologise...i am srry for my misbehave...and who so ever is readin this post wont able to get me rite..i just wrote this bcoz i really need to be urs..that my heart to heart connection in this world full of affection....

WHERE I WENT WRONG?

Every time i think of you when i am lonely,
and i now knew that you are my one and only..

Only love in my tiny lil heart,
in my life you are the best part..

A part that have the keys to my soul,
without you i just can't control..

Control myself in this mean world,
You still remember I've always been swirled..

Swirled in the wind in the dark sky,
when you were the one to deny..

Deny me for having your love,
a love that was hidden in a lil dove..

A dove that will bring you and me back,
and will turn it into a perfect track..

A track that will be perfect forever,
and the one which will be broken never ever..

Ever you loved me i kept wondering,
and i was doubtful for that plundering..

Plundering you from my life,
because for you i have done a hard strife..

A strife that would make you mine for ages,
walking with you at every stages..

Stages that broke us apart,
with you i still hope to start..

Start a new life and live together,
in this world in the regions nether..

Nether lip I'll gnawed your,
hope that you'll be loving sure..

Sure to believe that you'll be mine,
that would be the day wen I'll be sparkling wine..

Wine that would be as sweet as lime,
For us to commit to this loved crime..

Crime I've ever done so,
and now i wonder why you said me no..

No to continue the relationship long,
and now i wonder where i went wrong?
-Niharika Kohli (Naina)

When Love Hurts -A hard experience of life

The day i first saw you,something clutched into my mind about you.I thought it was an infatuation and i passed away.Later i saw you on a school trip and could never forget that moment wen you were standing beside me and i kept starring you continuously without blinking my eyes.A hunk in the blue colored tee with a cute smile,an extra tooth and 2 studs in the right ear.I was totally,internally and externally fallen for you.The tour changed my life.At the entire trip i kept looking at you,i kept following you but i forgot that i have a life to live of my own.When we were coming back from the tour i slept next to your seat in the train and whole night my eyes were on you.It was a kind of a craziness and madness you can say but whatever it was it was wonderful.Later we arrived back and you were lost from my eyes but i still remembered you in my heart.Everything was smooth for a couple of months but after sometime an extreme bad moment took place in my life when my pal told you about me and you betrayed me.A dream was broken and a life ended.I tried my level best to forget you and moved on with my life.
As some months passed i could actually believe that i am forgetting u but on the other hand i always kept wondering about you.I myself can't understand what actually happened to me because i could not believe that it was love because i was a kid at that time and i am still a kid.As time passed you told me to tie a rakhi to you and i did.Though i was quite hurt about it because i don't know you.i never had a word with you and everything was done.so why should i tie one one to you.I hate him for that.
After doing so every lil hope was lost,everything was over.I again faced a mess and moved on.
Even after that he was not completely flushed out of my life.He again took an entry by asking for a relationship to be done.As i loved him i didn't refused him.I said yes and spend a month with him and he left me,he destroyed me,he broke my trust.In other words "HE USED ME".I again tried to forget him but i couldn't.I loved him more than i love anything else in this world.That was the first time i saw myself crying for a guy though nothing was much serious between us.
After a couple of months he proposed me on orkut and i approved.We had a long long time together with each other and started falling more in luv.i started living for him.i committed my life to him.then i passed through another shock when he told me that he wasn't serious for me and it was just a time pass but meanwhile he also told me that he is now serious and wish to continue with me.i was damn serious for him so i spend the other moments also with him.we started knowing each other better and even started hanging out with each other.i met him several times and the moments i spend with him were the best moments of my life.i still luv him.around the month of October-November he started ignoring me and i felt that he is going away from me.i tried my level best to keep him happy that time.i never refused him for anything but even i came to know from my pal that he is using me but i didn't believed it coz i was blind in his love.i called him home.shared a few moments with him and the way he behaved with me that time i was quite sure that he is no more interested in me but i never loosed my hope.i still had faith in him and gave our relationship another chance.but soon he left me and i now live every moment like a dead person in this alive world.i cried a lot a lot a lot for him.i can even bet the world now that even if 100000 people gets one and united and started loving him but still their love will fail in front of me bcoz i luv him more than anybody else love him in this world.i have committed my life to him...i have committed my soul to him and how could anybody live without a soul.though he was unfaithful to me but still i am ok.i want to see him glad.i need him to get the happiness of this whole world.time heals my pain a bit but not the whole.i still have him in my tiny heart and nobody else.I'll kiss death in his arms if i wont get him and i have no shame to commit this in front of the whole world that i luv him more than i luv anythin else in this world ,even more than i luv myself.i still have that faith in you because when your heart reached mine the first word you told me was that "TRUST ME".Think of it bcoz this seldom lonely star is livin for you in this mean world.

LAST NIGHT I DREAMT OF YOU

Last night i dreamt of you..

Starring lovingly into each others eyes..
For me it was an extreme hard surprise...

I never thought we would hit it off again...
All just vanished with that hard pain..

I held your hand and walked with you...
There was no more fear as these moments were a few...

Though we knew that dad was behind..
still we clutched it and we were refined...

I loved your smile which i saw after a long time...
the time we had was as sweet as a sweet lime..

You dropped me till the place i live...
but my hugs and kisses you misgive...

You made me relived and told me to carry to it to the next day..
i took u apart and hold u hard and end it with a good bye kiss....

You went away and later i wake...
knowing that it was a dream that will fade..

Thanks to you coz i had a smile after i dreamt of you...
but in your absence i am like a leaf without a dew...

Last night i dreamt of you...
today morning i hope u to be real...

-NIHARIKA KOHLI (NAINA)

FREE WITH WORK

Past few weeks were the most tiering days for me....giving exams after every couple of day has been a big deal for me now...i get really depressed in exams...and this time one thing which I've noticed is that i can't stay without my best pal-tanvi....its been around 1 and a half year that i and tanu are together and the moments which i haven't shared with bharti and nandani,I've shared those with tanvi...its sounds a lil weird coz i am talkin abt a gal like that but we have really been very gud companions..exams were a huge suck up this time...its been a very long and tiering schedule for me and i felt extremely restless....all of them went really bad and i am out of those 85 and 90's this time..i have realized that the one who work hard to score marks always lose in life and thats the ultimate truth of life...so i have stop studying now...waise bhi it makes me go mad...nowadays what i actually love is that -"i love you" song by jazzy b ..i just simply love that song...even during my exams i kept listenin to that and kept singin and dancin on it all the time and that would be one the major reason that i've not scored well in exams...i want to be a person like sam...he is different and stylish in his own way and nobody can call him mad as the way he present himself in front of others is really gud but thats a different thing that our taste doesn't match...but still i am okay with it because from past few months I've started liking what he likes and i really thank for turnin me into a human being from some kind of a weired animal...next year i have my 10th boards and i am plannin to study only in 10th and i am glad that i haven't changed my school this year as if have joined an hostel and then it would be difficult for me to adjust in 10th because i am somebody who is always off from school and i don't even realize it...i remember a couple off days back when i took leave for 2 days from school then amit sir told me that -where have u been for these 2 days and i always find u taking leaves and i was extremely depressed by that but i take less of leaves this year as compared to my previous class when i was in 8th and i started arguing with him about this that how could you say that to me and a scene was create...he showed me my last months record and i came to know that I've attended the school for only 17 days out of 31 days...as i have an attitude problem i gave a cold look to sir and he too passed me the same...whatever the matter was i just didn't liked it....and now i am free for 3 days...i am plannin to go to karnal tomorrow to spend some time with my sis as i feel lonely without sam and gautam here...and my birthday is also approaching and dad is leavin for Dubai soon and most probably he wont be here on my birthday so i am extremely into my looks nowadays...last year on my birthday my overall look was of a tom gal coz i was dressed in a cargo with a simple tee with the shoes...i actually preferred the best brand last year coz i thought that goin on with the best brand would ultimately make me look good and would turn me into a better piece..but this time i am seekin for a designer dress..so would be wearing something which would give me a sweet girlish look rather than that tom look..well,lets hope for the best this time...

MY COMMITTMENT

FROM WHERE DO I BEGIN??
TILL WHERE DO I END??
MY LOVE IS TRUE,
I MADE IT PROOFED..

AH!THE DAY WE MET I CAN'T FORGET THAT TOUCH,
THE TIME WE HIT IT OFF WITH THAT HARD CLUTCH...

YOUR ESSENCE I FELT,
THOSE MEMORIES CAN'T MELT...

THE TIME WAS DELICIOUS,
THE MOMENT WAS AUSPICIOUS..

THE NOSE FIGHT WE PLAYED,
I CAN NEVER LET IT FADE..

YOUR HUG MADE IT HARD,
THUS ITS BEEN DELICIOUS SO FAR...

YOUR JUMP FROM MY FIRST FLOOR,
MADE ME MORE ADORE....

THE NINE HOURS JUST FEEL LIKE ONE,
LIKE YOU THERE IS NONE...

THIS SELDOM LONELY STAR WISH TO ENJOY WITH YOU,
YOUR HEART WILL BE MY HOME IS A WISH I MADE A FEW...

THIS SELDOM LONELY STAR WISH TO SHINE IN YOUR ARMS,
THATS THE WAY YOU ARE-A MAN FULL OF CHARMS...

FROM WHERE DO I BEGIN??
TILL WHERE DO I END??
MY LOVE IS TRUE,
I MADE IT PROOFED..

-NIHARIKA KOHLI (NAINA)

Lonely Me

PEOPLE WANT TO LIVE,
BUT I WANT TO DIE..

MY CONDITION IS BECAUSE OF YOU...
AND THE REASON YOU MAY KNEW...

PEOPLE WANT TO PLAN THEIR FUTURE,
BUT I NEED TO PLAN MY DEATH..

THE PROMISES WE MADE YOU BREACHED IT WELL...
AND THATS THE REASON WHY I YELL...

PEOPLE LOVE SWEETS,
BUT I NEED POISSON...

MY LIFE IS LIKE HELL,
AND HERE I STOP BECAUSE FURTHER I CANNOT TELL...

PEOPLE WANT TO LIVE,
BUT I WANT TO DIE...

-NIHARIKA KOHLI (NAINA)

IF I WONT GET YOU, THEN I'LL KISS DEATH IN YOUR ARMS SOMEDAY...